What's this...this strange feeling I have?... Is it that I'm content? Is it deja vu? Is it wonder? Could it be happiness? No, I would think not, but it feels so weird. Like I'm free of something. Of course I know, come school I must deal with getting rid of the girls again, as well as I know I accidentally said yes to bungee jumping... I just don't get it... There's no tingle of joy, but I feel immune to anything that would hit me. As it is, I would like to share it, but there's no one. I feel sort of how I'd imagine a star would. Actually, it really doesn't feel like a feeling at all. More like, I want a feeling, while keeping my immunity. Want to maybe, reach out to something as if when I reached, something would be there for me to touch. When my hands don't sweat I do like to touch spheres. Even more so I enjoy wearing gloves. A mask for my otherwise wet palms. I like the soft gloves and when I put my hands in I always put something else in to absorb the sweat so it's not uncomfortable. I wanna take a big breath and sigh for no reason at all. It would be so great... I must go to bed soon. I must wake up...early...so I may help...at the...office... I don't think I want to though. I wish he wouldn't pay me. I wish I had someone to talk to rather than the keyboard. It feels so nice to push the letters in though. I think it unfortunate...I can't play an instrument... I want the drums. Here's my last wish for the night. I want to lie down in soft, slightly wet, and slightly cold grass, no bugs. I want to look up at the stars, hands behind my head, just watching, with no clouds to block my view, and wind blowing just enough to make me cold. I want to be able to dream, and dream myself into a restful sleep, then wake from that dream. I want to wake without harsh sunlight, but the soft, warm, welcoming stream of sunlight through a window. I wonder... When I wake to my alarm in the morning...will I feel the same?... No. Again, I would think not. Why? Because, as is my motto for life, "If something is too good to be true, there's a 99.99% chance it is". Good night everyone. And sweet dreams.