That comment does make some sense if you'd know me outside of my blog, ya' see my bf the one I've been with, hasn't changed so anyway, went into the airforce for basic and tech, all in all about six months of training, 6 weeks of bootcamp, the rest tech, or so this is my understanding. Anyway so I'm used to spending 3 hours at least on the phone with him a day, which has now been cut down to 10 minutes on sunday only, I'm going insane! To put it in words that would describe it perfectly, I feel like an addict denied her addiction. He's been at the base since the begginning of June, its 2 weeks away from graduation, and he got hurt. I have no cluye how or what or when, all I know is its his knee, which makes me very twitchy, ya' know what I mean? 

I've gotten a bunch of letters that make me smile , I'm not like a really smile-all-the-time-creepy-weird-person (coughcoughcoworkercoughcough) but when I d o smile according to everyone else it lights up the room, I think it kinda  just makle me wanna jumpo and scream when I smile, cuz usually I'm smiling so I don't jump and scream like some insane weirdo freak who constantly smiles no matter what in the most eerie creeppy irritating way.  Yea, I'm frazzled as I would putting it, that means my brain is in a mushing scramble of excitement and other associatie teenage hormone induced mood swing emotions, so yea, I'm officially crazy. My mind is like a stae of chaos nothing seems to fit, and I feel like my right arm is ripped off, (not my left one though cuz I need it write) and all this stuff keeps swirling around inside my head making me want to scream, on top of that  I have a bunch of stories and stuff I wanna write but I've got so much going on in my head its like the writers block just sits there and smirks at me like "oh yea in your face, yor life sux and now you can't write watcha gonna do huh huh?" yea my writers block talks the cocky s.o.b. -_-

I feel like someone else pilots my body at times, like someone else dictates what I do, making me do or say things I don't really want to do. Like dump all of m Mom's Smirnoff, I have no clue what happened, I just took the case outside and started pouring, before I knew it, the entire case was gone, like in the blink of an eye. I have no clue why though I don't gfet it, holy crap, my cat just jumped on the computer desk and now he;s staring at me typing, he may step on the, no wait, he got off the desk. Yea I'm like add I can't focus on what I want to do, but what I don't want to do , I keep focusing on, it won't go away/. I'm typing pretty fast so plz overlook any small spelling errors I feel like my body is in hyper drive auto pilot , the thoughts keep pouring out through the keyborad.

My parents are arguing over getting new stuff, our employees are idiots, only 3 of them aren't in trouble, 2 of them want to run the restaurant, I myself want to tel them to shove it at time, and the rest of those in trouble are just lazy mofos. My Mom's opening linbe for the meeting Sunady, err tomorrow is "Do any of you have over (xamount of money) in this businness?" and when no one raises there hands she'll say "thats what I thought, until you do you are not a boss, if you can't handle someone else being in charge then you have no business working here. Yea the employees are getting to be pretty cocky, thinking they can change thinkgs they are not supposed to, because  they've been there the longest or the second longest. I got news for all of them I am one of the longest running employees of the restaurant and until they've been there longer that me I don't want to ghear it, 'cu z if it was left up to who was there the longest in the front, I would be in charge, because it was mine and my brothers and all my immideiate family who started this and beside my mom and stepdad I have been there the longest, yea, I'm alittle moody. but he just called so I'm flaoting I got to hear my lthree favorite wordss so annyway

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ps Chips Ahoy suck if you're longing to see someone, thye just suk m onkey.

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