06.04.08-Treasures are the simple things in life.

I can't believe it!  I've done it again.  I owe you over a month's worth of gossip about what goes on in this twisted life of mine.

Let me see…  I broke up with J not long ago from the time I last wrote my last post.  It was the most painful break up I had ever had to do, mostly I think it was so because for once I was not angry at him nor annoyed by him.  I told him the truth and nothing but the truth, I didn't feel that way for him.  I think I did for a moment there but it just… vanished.  I love him a lot, as a friend that is.

Now, thinking back, he is the greatest guy I ever met to have a relationship with.  I know a lot of guys so I kind of know how guys behave but he is definitely different than most.  I wish I could love him but reality is I just can't, it's just not there.
In a way it hurts me that before we used to have a wider communication in between us and now we hardly hear from each other once per week.  He insists that we be friends and I really want to keep him as a friend, yet I miss him being here for me as he used to back when we were in a relationship.

My dad got us a rat a few weeks ago.  I fell in love with it but did not name her.  I think she was sick when he got her because she used to breathe rather fast and she seemed to shake some.  It died 3 after we brought her home.  I cried so much and realized that she was not only my pet rat but became quick a best friend.  She gave me so much comfort and relaxation after the long days.  We buried her and wrote on her box "Rat", since she had no name it was one that suited her best.

Two days after my dad got me another rat, a male.  Al is very healthy and even though he has been able make up for Rat's loss, Rat will not be forgotten.

Al is very active.  He loves it when I take him out.  He likes to climb on my shoulder and sniff around the room from there.  If I let my hair down he will hide in it.  I think he is getting used to me.  I love him so much.

I am such fuzz.  One of my neighbors, whom I rarely see, about once a week, is getting really…  Let's just say I am wooing over him.
Today I saw his truck in the back and I was wondering if it was him or another of his business partners.  I noticed he was about to come out and so I went out since I had to come out anyways.  As I was doing my stuff I was glancing his way and I noticed he did something different than usual.  He was closing the gate going inside first, kind of like to be able to see my way.  O.O  No way!  He was looking my way but as I noticed he was doing so I could not keep on looking at him.
I know I like him but, it makes me wonder if he is starting to notice me.  Or has he been noticing me for awhile but I didn't know because I had not notice him.  Whatever the reason he was acting like this made me blush a deep red in front of him.  >.<
I think he is cute but I am too shy to get near him.  I wonder if he'll ever try to make the first move, I mean, provided that him ever liking me comes true.
Mom says we have a lot in common, that we'll make a perfect match.  Wow, I don't know why she is so into it all, scary if you'd ask me.

In any case, I'll keep you posted, or at the least try to.