Wow, I really need to start writing in this thing a bit more...

It's really hard to get a date in a closed-minded community who thinks that you're nuts. Yeah, that would be me. And yet, I've fallen in love with a guy with whom I havn't talked to in like 3 or 4 months. Confused? Ok ,I'll explain...

A couple days before the last day of school in June, one of my guy friends wanted to break up with his girlfriend (oh yeah, he pretty much jinxed the relationship saying that he was never going to break up with her. Yeah, sure). The guy I have a crush on suggested making a video of the guy kissing my best friend. They did it, video taped it, and showed it to eveeyone at lunch. I saw it and said it was a super bad idea. No one listened to me. Next day, I'm going to my next class, and I see the brilliant camera man standing in the hall. I could tell there was something wrong just by looking at him. Halfway into class, he comes in. He got totally busted. About 3 months of suspention was heading his way the next school year. The last time I talked to him was at my friend's party on the last day of school.

2 months later, I see my guy friend (the one who pretty much started the whole mess and he also had like 3 months of suspension) on the second day of the new school year. And I'm like 'Huh?' So I ask him what's going on, and he said that they let it go. So I'm looking for my crush and guess what? He's being home schooled. Home Schooled. Geez, I was crying for like a week after that bomb was dropped (metophorically speaking). Mostly out of sadness, and out of anger. I told him it was a bad idea! I told him not to do it! And yet I also could have said something at the party like "call me!" or "I like or you" or even "goodbye!" But of course, I was too scared to tell him how I felt and everyone was talking to him so I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye...I'm so mad at him, and yet I still love him...