Past Wednesday I went to the cinema, and I watched The Science Of Sleep (with Gael Garcia, who is a proudly Mexican actor ^_^). At the beginning I thought it was just a film about dreams and things like those, but suddenly it changed in something more than that, because I saw myself in that strange film.

Stephane is a French-Mexican guy, he's an artist and he comes back to Paris after his Dad's dead, because his mother offers him a new job. Well in this point we don't have anything in common, except about art, and then something really curious happens: Stephane meets his new neighbour, Stephanie, and her pretty girlfriend Zoë. At first time Stephane is interested in Zoë, but she has boyfriend, and it's Stephanie who seems interested in him. Funny things happen to Stephane, and he and Stephanie become good friends. But Stephane is trying to deny what he's feeling for Stephanie, he's just falling in love with her, and he notices sadly she doesn't feel the same, or at least in the same way (I mean in a romantic way). Stephane is desperate, he's really in love with that girl, but she doesn't want him, and he's about to go mad.

Why me? This a question, but I'm going to talk about it later on. Why this film looks like my life? Well, it's because something very similar happened to me recently. I met Carlos, a nice guy, tall, handsome and I liked him a lot, but then I knew Erick, his friend. It was very funny, suddenly I was with Erick, and we were passing time together, I was so interested in this new guy, who was totally different to anybody I've known before. One day I began to sleep with him, only a "just-sleep-together" relationship, but suddenly I noticed I've already fallen in love with him, but he seems not to be interested in me in the same way, he likes me a lot, but he doesn't love me.

So, here's the question: "Why me?" When Stephanie made that question, I couldn’t help but cry, it was Erick asking me "Why me?", when I confessed I was in love with him. Was it just a coincidence or an unavoidable fate? Erick is Stephanie and I'm Stephane, and maybe, as it happens to Stephane, I'll be with him only in my dreams.

I can't explain how it made me feel, because it was like I was a spectator of my own life. For a moment I thought that my own life wasn't really mine that it was happening to someone else that was not me. It was really rare, like a funny dream, a kind of a cruel game. I love Erick, but like Stephanie with Stephane, he doesn't love me, and I'm just a Stephane dreaming of her dream coming true.