Why is that everyone has to be judged? Is it human nature to do so? And if it is human nature what made us start? Is it because we are doing what the animals do by picking out the weakest or the greatest danger to ourselves? But there are many people in the world that look one way but are truly completely different! This is something that annoys me and I think that it is a terrible thing to do. When people see me all they see is a “vampire wannabe” and so they think that I like to kill things and that I am normally a violent person. Well that is completely not true! Sure I used to act like that when I was in high school but that was so I could not get pushed around. I still dress in the clothes I wear because they are pretty and I look good in them.

What frustrates me the most is that even my closest friends even think I am violent! I had a friend of mine over and he kept making comments about how I was going to castrate him and stuff like that (stuff I used to say to him like 3 years ago)… I have never been more mad in my life because I have never once hurt him physically! My true personality is that I am an animal lover and I guess if I was to be put into a category for people to understand me I guess it would be hick since I ride horses and am starting to wear the battered jeans and warm sweaters. I would never dream of hurting anything in my life because I take care of abused and neglected animals and so I have to be patient and willing to accept anything they throw my way. Being violent with them would just make things worse and I would not be any better than the people who had them before. My friends all know I do take in abuse case animals and what I do to save them so why do they all say stuff about me being violent. Can a person not change and not be judged for what they used to be and not what they are now?