Have you ever thought a day was any ordinary day and it turns out that it was a dreadful day? I have. In fact, that day was yesterday, February 8, 2007. This is one day that I will never forget. I was at school like every other teenager who is trying to graduate high school. I was anxious for school to get out. That night, we were having a family night where we would be going to SFCC(Spokane Falls Community College) to go bowling and have fun with friends and all. That wasn't until five though. When I got home, I went to see who was online and I wanted to check my e-mail. That was when things went downhill. I talked to my dear friend, Crow...at least I thought it was him. It turned out to be his cousin, Sara. She told me some news that I never wanted to hear. Crow died in a car accident that day. I have known him for five years. I know his real name but I won't speak it here. He was only seventeen years old. He was in the car with his parents and they got into an awful accident. He didn't survive it....

After five years of being friends, good times and bad...you would think that we would still be able to talk to each other and laugh and cry at stupid things that we have done. Not anymore though, the gods took him away from me. I have always hated the gods aside from a few....now I hate them even more. This is the second friend that I have lost to a car accident. The first one was one of my best friends from when I first started high school. He taught me a lot of card games and he made everyone laugh, he died in a car accident as well. He was only sixteen. This is not about him though, that was all the way back when I was fifteen years old. But this, it just happened yesterday. After I heard the news, I didn't want to go to the outing. I wanted to stay in my room by myself. I wanted to play DDR to get my mind off of the pain. I wanted to sing to Sara McLachlan's "I Will Remember You." I am supposed to be working on something right now but my mind won't allow me to do my work. I didn't even do my math work today.

  I am a senior this year and I am supposed to graduate. If things keep going like this I am not sure that I will even care. Yesterday, I had my own little funeral for him since he doesn't live in my town. I made a vow, I vowed that I would never stop singing, I would sing for him and I would go on from this day with time...I would stop mourning. I will never stop singing, it makes me feel at peace. I believe it will take me a long time though. I am about to cry again, I should stop writing this now....I don't want to break down and cry at a computer, that is dangerous.

             ~Xai~