Cuts and bruises

Knots and scratches

Why do I do theses things

I torture myself trying to relieve pain

And for some reason it works

I chant put downs

And curses to God

I talk myself into believing I'm nothing

And that there is no God

No one cares about me

And if there was a God I would't be suffering

Since there is no God there is no Heaven

Meaning that

There is no Devil therefore no Hell

I can simply die and whatever will happen,will happen

My suicide will happen I die with no worries