alright this my first blog thingy and im new at this thing really um well their isnt much that kinds to mind other than my ex giving me womenly troubles oh and i appoligize for run on sentences right now.. So id like to start by saying this is very stressing that my ex still loves me but gives me troubles cuz she wont go back out with me.Well i tryed so many things to make her smile and get her to go back out with me but hmm well i havnt been able to get her to go out with me the darn girl is being a butt to me she thinks i emotionaly abussed her or sum stupid s*** but i havnt done anything all i have done was to be over protective and well fine its bad of me to do that i guess but i had a reason why well the reason cant be said because if she finds out i said this on the net id be dead haha!.So s*** well then its christmas i finally make up for it enough to have her go out with me but mama says that she doesnt want us to go out so if mama says no then my ex says im sorry no!UGH! its so annoying i dont see why she has to listen to her mother i mean jesus my sister has problems with her boyfriend every couple has problems after all.So my sister has problems my mother feels that my sister is paying for her mans bills and takin care of him when its the man who should be takin care of her but still so my sister dont care and when they do fight she dont go to my mother she just in her room or goes for a ride and talks thing out you know because mothers dont need to be in a relationship in fact in any relationship because they are troublesome and dont need to know all the facts. So darn it no her mother is all up in our buisness and im trying to make the mother happy because she the one thats guna let me date her daughter and it makes me thing well what the f*** am i dating you or and i dating your daughter huh?and i cant say that to her cuz it be horrible conflict between the two of us but hell man it just aint fair i got this girl that has a crush on me and i hurt her cuz i did actually have a crush on her to but in fact i cant stop thinking about the ex darn it im a loyal dog i get hurt by my ex so much but no matter what happens i start to think of her and run back like a loyal dog panting and begging for her back i must be sound dumb to yall peoples but i must be lol.So well alright so because i hurt that girl her sister got mad at me cuz i had hurt her i didnt mean to i just cant get into a serious relationship i love my ex to death and i guess i cant find an other girl to fill the gap.I dont know what to do and well now i got an other friend poor candy ugh i like her alot but i dont think i can actually be able to get serious with her cuz shes liking me to sigh women are giving me problems and i dont know what to do i had actually thought ok if i have my ex tell me what she didnt like about what ive done and rant on about her feelings i thought ok well she will get tired and finally just give up on all this foolish ness it work the next day im lookin to talk to the girl and she got this stank attitude like she got a stick up her bottom and all i wanted to do was talk about a story i had in my mind and she didnt like it cuz it was about us and she dont want our life made into an anime s*** i thought it be great hell i told 2 girls my friend mimi and my friend crystal s*** they thought it was great but i tell my ex and she hates the idea...damn well im running out of rant now and ive got a headack i just want to get all this problems fixed i want my ex back already i love the f***ing girl just wish she stop being such a b**** to me and just let me back into her heart i cant help it if i over reacted if any of you knew the reason why i over reacted tell me with an honest heart you wouldnt act the way i have by trying to be extra careful to take care of the one you love s*** its my mistake for being so caring and her mama dont like .... i know it that old hag dont like me i know it their ive said it she an old bat shoot...she diserved that one