i always ask myself....y is it that when u meet someone.....they disappear from ur life when u least expect it.....and then u wonder....is it punishment? y did that person have to go? y did they leave u alone? knwing that u cared for them so much....is it that they hate u? or is it that they were taken themselves without knowing?......was it God who punished u by taking them away?....or was it that he took that person for his own to be with?

i dnt think i can ever knw the answer....but if one day i find it....wats the whole point of knwing anyways? maybe its the curiosity that stirs inside of me...erging for me to find out....and if i dnt.....then it will stay somewhere inside me...waiting for the answer so that it can finally go to its sleep, so that it wont worry anymore...

maybe one day i will find all the answers to my questions....and then i can rest my head.....rest my mind....my body...and my soul. so that when i get home...i wnt have to worry..because i've learned all the answers to my questions...and when i do finally go home...i will learn more with my family and friends...i will learn everything they learned when they got home...

and then...i will learn....that life wouldn't be life...if it wasn't that u were living for something.....and so....life isn't life without the search...the struggle..and the waits we have to make in order to get where we want to get to....and once we do....we will all rest our souls, minds, and bodies....so that we can finally sleep...

so that we can wake.....to a new beginning...