As I sit and cry I wonder why

I wonder why I feel like this

Is it you or is me or is it something beyond that

I don’t know, I hope to find out soon

This pain and suffering is tearing me apart

I try to hide how I feel

So you won’t get hurt

But hiding it only makes it worse

I try to tell you to find someone else to love

But you don’t listen and I don’t know why

I don’t understand why you would love me

Over someone else, I don’t understand

I don’t see much in me

I only see pain and suffering

That is all I ever cause

You on the other hand are worth so much more

You deserve better then me

I believe you will be happier without me bring you down

If you want to stay that is fine

If you leave I’ll understand

I won’t hate you if you leave

I won’t hate you if you stay

Just know that I can cause pain and suffering

If you can handle that then fine

If you can’t then get out and leave before you can’t

Ó Caroline Bradt June 18 2008