Well then… I shall begin writing the first blog I’ve ever written in my life…and this is very old news…. I have this urge to write something about it, so please bear with me. ^__^;;

So. Have any of you ever heard of my fiction, Endless? Well, wish it a peaceful death and a safe trip back to life, because I’m throwing it away (yes, all 78 pages, single-spaced, size 12 font) and rewriting it. The whole entire thing.

To those of you who have read it: I am grateful beyond words. But now, I’m feeling incredibly guilty and undeserving. I’m very, very, very sorry. The messy, incoherent glob of random thoughts was definitely not worth your time. Well okay, it wasn’t THAT bad, but still, it was pretty bad. Anyway, thank you and I’m very sorry. *bows a bajillion times*

To those of you who have NOT read it: lucky, lucky, lucky you. No, seriously. My hideous creation isn’t even worth burning. So thank your lucky stars.

But WHY is it so bad? Well, for a lot of reasons. You see, I have a certain “pride” in my work. I won’t allow it to be how it is if I can still improve it. That’s my philosophy: improve it if you can. As for the actual reasons, these are it:

1)      THE UNORIGINALITY WAS KILLING ME. You see, I had this mental breakdown a few weeks ago. I was forced to admit to myself that I was totally unoriginal, and my writing was just ripoffs of other people’s work, whether it was intentional or not. My friends really helped me to realize that. They really helped me, although I’m not really sure they’re aware of it. So, thank you guys! You should know who you are.

2)      The actual writing was atrocious. The sentence structure was messed up, the word choice was hideous, and everything was just corny, corny, corny. Very, very, very bad. *nods*

3)     I wanted to change a lot of the plot. The beginning was extremely boring, and there were a lot of glitches and things I didn’t like about the plot I planned to write, as well as the part I actually did write. So rather than wading through all the muck, I decided that it would be a lot easier to start on a clean sheet of paper. Literally.

4)     The journal format wasn’t working. It was difficult to write, as well as understand. I decided to write in the four main characters’ perspectives in first person POV, which would accomplish most of the stuff I wanted the journals to accomplish, in a better, easier, more coherent way.

5)     This is the reason that is hardest to get. Remember the mental breakdown I mentioned? Well it was really frustrating and depressing me. I doubt any of my friends in real life noticed it that much, but I was down for days. I felt as if my two years worth of effort was wasted, and I was stupid enough to continue writing, despite knowing, way deep down there, that my work was unoriginal and poorly written. I felt an urge—almost an instinct—pushing me forward, telling me that I had to do something, start over. Deciding to completely rewrite was that “something.”

So there ya have it. The reasons for my rewriting. To some of you who argue that it’s “already really good” or “you should accept your past works” or “you’re only doing this to get attention and fish for compliments,” please try to understand my feelings. It’s not only a matter of improving my writing—it’s something very personal that I hold near and dear to my heart. If you can’t accept it, then please, completely ignore my existence; I won’t hold it against you. (Not like anyone would actually care—any of you who have actually read up to this far are amazing.)

Some additional things I’d like to mention. Please keep in mind that this is a WORK IN PROGRESS. I will be changing it and changing it as I see fit, because I want it to be the best it can. This probably means I won't be posting it on Tokyopop for a while, if ever. *bows* Gomen nasai (some Japanese from the Squid. XD). Also please keep in mind that I’m COMPLETELY REWRITING. That means I’m completely disowning my previous draft (I deleted it from my profile, if you noticed), discarding most of the plot, and changing almost everything. Including the title, which has morphed from “Endless” to “Fate Happened” (thank god I didn’t choose that one!) to “InEscapable” to “Chronicles of Mortality: Inescapable.” And that’s right; I’ve also decided to make it one book of a series. Whether or not I’ll ever finish the book, never mind the series, however, is a whole ‘nother thing. I may sound arrogant declaring that I’m going to write so much, but there isn’t any way around it. And I’m excited. Very, very excited.

I’m so excited, I’ve written 35 pages in a mere three weeks—something absolutely amazing to my standards. I have lots and lots of homework, and I’m an unbelievably slow writer (and reader for that matter), so really, that’s an epic feat. For me, at least. XD I’m pretty confident to say that this version is much, much better than the last. And I enjoy writing it more. So…I’m happy. :D

And I’m sorry that I wasted your time, if I did. *bows*

Well, see you around!

~mxSkai (aka Fish, Skai, Neji, Soubi, Asian Potter, etc.)