have you ever had that feeling that you have been made a fool...well.. if you had it that you DO understand how i feel...not only was i made a fool, but i actually helped the person to make me even a bigger one...and when i look back i only feel disappointment and shame...i truly believed in that thing with all my might and i was about to start believing in it again but, luckily, i was put face to face with "the pearly white teeth of the shark"...
unfortunately, for me i wasn't the one to deliver the stab in the back, but i was on the receiving end...how sad...i just had a taste of my own medicine...someone smiled pretty at me, because i was needed for a thing or two...this person will still smile pretty at me, as this person is unaware that i already saw "the beautiful pearly teeth"....and hopefully I'll be able to deliver my stabbing in the back , looking into this person's eyes and smiling pretty...this is my birthday wish...
i feel so little, so sick of it all, so insignificant...my soul is shattered in a thousand pieces...and i do not have the will or the means of actually picking them up and putting them together....
i hadn't had this feeling since i was an awkward teenager and i was lied to my face and with a smile on the face by the boy that told me a thousand times that he loved me more than anything...
oh Howl, my perfect imaginary friend and confessor...how will i pull myself together...i'm a broken doll...my "rosa mystica" was shattered...
i promised myself so long ago that this won't happen to me ever... that i won't allow it...and this person...oh, this person....
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